we thought we would give it one try.
we got the call about 2 weeks ago that there was a child that fit our criteria. she had the perfect name and was a "ham" and had quite the personality. what could be wrong with any of that?!
we had no idea what we were getting into.
things have been...difficult.
based on her history, i'm not surprised that she isn't the easiest child. any child who has had a rough start from the beginning could be difficult.
but we thought with love and attention, things would get better. if we gave it some time, her mood would change. she would understand boundaries, and not to be naughty for attention. she would stop crying uncontrollably. she would play with us and spend quality time with us.
maybe that was too much to expect in 2 weeks, and maybe it was too much to expect from a toddler.
all i know is that it's too much for me.
i've nannied and been through the ups and downs with children before. i've been around many kids her age and they all loved me. i just don't know what else to do...
and now i feel guilt. unbelievable guilt that she has to find a new home. that she has to move again.
and i feel like a failure for not being able to make it work. for not helping her.
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